I got into writing by a bizarre route.  Basically, I served an especially creative dungeon mistress for a number of years who was very skilled at creating scenes, assuming different characters, improvising and story-telling.  I write stories drawing on the themes of female supremacy, goddess worship, bdsm and fetish.  My writing looks at the tensions and contradictions between the dominant and the submissive and explores the boundaries between pain and pleasure, physical and mental bondage and retribution and reward.  I’d like to use this blog to describe the relationship between my writing and my bdsm experiences which have inspired it and to describe the strong connection that exists between the two.

I started writing because I wanted to contribute to the scenes my mistress had imagined and add some of my creativity to them and discovered that story-telling was a great way of doing that.  It started on a small scale by recounting stories I had made up in my head which got integrated into a session.  I remember on one occasion I’d developed a story that was a bdsm version of the Arabian Sinbad tales and, I thought, quite cleverly added the twist of offering three endings for mistress to choose from.  She rejected them all and chose one of her own, which involved me getting punished!  She could be wickedly ingenious like that.  It didn’t take me long before I took some of my story ideas and started to put pen to paper.  So, I started writing stories, some of which were presented as gifts to her and there were others which got worked into elaborate story cycles that became part of the sessions.  Over time we built up a special rapport, with mistress at times interweaving her domination of me with the writing.

One of the things mistress would do is set me a mission.  This usually involved the rescue of a pagan goddess and a set of trials or challenges that had to be passed through to complete the mission.  She would create the scene and the key tests, sometimes providing me with tools necessary for completion of the task or introducing characters who would assist me or oppose me.  I had to fill out the story, working out how I would complete the mission and overcome the tests laid down for me.  An example of a story created in this way is offered as a ‘Free Read’ on this web site.  This is an extract form ‘The Chronicles of Slave Nano’ and is a part of a much longer story cycle.  In this case the ‘Proclomation of Goddess Freyja’ was actually written by mistress and I wrote the start and the punishment scene, so we both contributed to forming the story.

On one session I had been ordered to report back orally rather than by reading.  Wrist and ankle straps were secured on me and fixed to the floor and ceiling and, with nipple clamps on, I was told to recite the tale whilst mistress sat on her throne and listened.  The whole session consisted entirely of me telling the story, which involved rescuing the Chinese goddess of mercy, Quan Yin from her cruel father who had imprisoned her.  I guess some of you might find this odd – you might be thinking why on earth would I do such a thing?  I can only say it was a very beautiful and moving experience.  It was also very submissive – after all, my place was to serve Her and bring Her pleasure and what better way to do that than tell a story she would enjoy.

Many of the stories created in this way are probably not publishable though I have worked a couple of them into the draft of my ‘Kim’s Adventures in Fetishland’ book I’ve just completed to create part of the back story for a character.  Not all my stories were created in this way.  On other occasions I would write something up that I had an idea for or mistress would ask for a certain kind of story.  Sometimes in my writing it’s hard to see where the line is between fantasy and real experience but most of what I’ve written, even when it’s something I obviously couldn’t have done, has been inspired by these sessions I attended with mistress.

Although my experiences are unusual in many ways it’s not surprising that such a relationship between the creative process of writing and scenes created by a dominatrix should co-exist so easily.  Dungeon mistresses use their powers of psychology, imagination, character, cadence of voice and scene setting, as well as their more obvious physical attributes and presence, to control and manipulate their submissives to their will. Dommes have a wonderful sense of theatre and drama, which at its most intense level goes way beyond simple role playing.  I know I learnt an enormous amount about the use of language, dialogue, pace and timing from being in and observing the scenes created by mistress. It was an inspiration and privilege to be touched by that and then to go on and translate some of it into my writing.

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